Band practices are really intense nowadays...well...by intense I just mean that they end at 8+/8:30. This whole week I've been reaching my house at 9:30+ and I'm so freaking tired!

I'm going for the St Andrew's Alumni Band concert tomorrow (all my money-gone! T.T) at 7:30. It's been ages since I last went for a concert! This time I have my glasses so I won't get headaches during concerts anymore!! ^^ I miss going for concerts with my section mates! T.T

I've been really excited these past 2 weeks cos Rox and I had been meeting up to write fanmail to Yamapi, Tegoshi and Kato(for Rox). At first I wasn't really very interested in that idea, but...actually, I have no idea why I changed my mind.

Well it was really exciting anyway, there were many moments when we broke into fits of giggles and exclamations over who was cuter/funnier, and moments where we (or rather, I) messed up the letters so spectacularly (for example, I wrote the signing off part - please reply to our letter and all that stuff - on the first page!!!), that we were afraid that we'd have to start all over again (just when we had finished), and moments where we (in this case, more like ROXANNE) spent ages taking photos and trying to pick the perfect one *rolls eyes* (even though they all looked the same).

I especially need to mention how embarrassed the both of us were when we went to get the stamps, and the lady, to weigh the envelope, placed it facing up, and the whole world could see the the hearts and the names written there.

And at the very end, after we posted the letters, we felt as though we had signed our own death sentences. I had felt exactly the same way when I finished my O levels O.O seriously a weird feeling to have at that time...

I was thinking about my glasses just now, and I remembered all the time in IJ when I always complained to Wei Ting that I couldn't see the board properly during AMaths, which then got me thinking about all the times I spent arguing with wt (for reasons I have forgotten), and the times when we would have cold wars which (beginning in the morning) lasted until recess when either me or wt would start up small talk with the other as a way of apology (because we seriously couldn't take ignoring each other anymore, and wt would tell me how much she had been trying to control her laughter at they way I tried to ignore her). Then the times when we always scored around the same marks +/- 1or 2, how we became friends (wt spotted a pic of an anime girl on my notebook and asked if I liked anime...during Chem practical!), the times when she would roll her eyes and sigh really loudly when I started obsessing over L. *sigh* WT!!!! I miss sitting next to you T.T

These days can never, ever be found again.

Man I sound so emo!!!! Blame the Konayuki song (from 1Litre of Tears) I'm listening to as I write this. The feeling the song gives is that of nostalgia, but one which can never be relived or revisited (where you would look back at even painful memories with a certain fondness). In other words, I'm depressing myself.

BIG NEWS! I'm getting...GLASSES!!! I decided on a blue thin-framed one, and I can't wait to go collect it on Wednesday!!

Oh and band practices are getting really demanding, we have practice next Monday, Wednesday, Friday and Saturday, but then, it's cos our concert (A Lot Like Jazz) is coming up (which is, by the way, on the 8th of March).

Sooo...classes are starting this Monday, and I've really gotta start revising Chem and Physics.. I had absolutely no idea what the lecturer was talking about when he went through vectors, oh! but the Maths lecturer (for partial fracts) was reallly funny! He's really like a student and kept trying to explain math stuff to us in layman's terms, but it totally works, cos I understand what he taught and will most probably remember it.

Anyway, I went for math tuition today and I found out that I forgot the product rule for differentiation!!! I forgot almost everything over the hols! so I have to try to remember them all over again T.T

I miss IJ Band and their really strict rules! (like no handphones/ Reply with Yes-short, loud..and sth else../ and do a specific number of laps around the track for the number of minutes you're late... ..............actually, no, I DON'T miss that!)

I HATE MOLES

After reading Li Ying's blog, I've been thinking. My life is so self-centred. I call myself a Christian, yet I just continue living my life without including God. I excuse myself saying that he never speaks to me anyway, so, I might as well just go on a path I want and hope its correct, but I realise that I haven't really been opening my ears. I barely glance at the Bible everyday, forget to half the time and the rest I tell myself that I'm too tired, and that I'd make up for it later...

How long is this going to go on for anyway? When am I actually gonna "make-up"?

I've been so obsessed with other things lately that God just doesn't seem to fit into the equation anymore. Sure, I need to have hobbies and interests and stuff, but God should always come first. I'm really glad in one way that I entered SA, their motto/saying "No one is here by chance" is really meaningful and it has also helped me to see that God has been with me through so many things in the past (including getting into SA, which would have been impossiblex100 with my prelim marks) but I barely seem to think twice about him. I know that it wasn't through my own efforts that I was able to tackle the Os. I know this but I'm so stubborn and I don't want to acknowledge it.

Well, from now on I shall set at the very least 20 minutes a day (10 in the morning, 10 at night) for God. If I can't even do this much for a God who is so kind, I shouldn't even be going to a JC.

(added later) Just read Zexun's blog! Everybody seems to be in a repent/resolution kinda mode!

Ok. You'll never believe what I saw. I was waiting for the bus 73 at tp, and I was looking around cos I was really bored, and you know, there's this t-shirt shop closeby selling really cute tees 3 for $20. Anyway, I spotted this EXTREMELY cute tee (anime) and I was staring at it cos it was cute and it looked really familiar. There was a brunette guy and a dark-haired guy (and if you don't know where I'm going with this, you seriously don't know me) and they were both decked out in Halloween outfits. The brunette was wearing a black shirt with a red tie and looked to be carrying pumpkin sweets, or sth like that. The dark-haired guy was wearing...actually, I have no idea what he was dressed up as, it seemed to be a weird combination of a lot of things (including a witch's hat, funnily).

So, anyway, I was staring at it and suddenly I noticed the words on the tee underneath them. It said in bold letters "DEATH NOTE". Yes, I can't believe I'm such a traitor to not even recognise L and Light when I see them T.T

Oh yea, I found out from Roxanne today that the guy who acted as Aso (the really cute guy in 1LoT) is actually....*drumroll*

Ryō Nishikido (a NEWS member) He seriously doesn't look like that now!!! Maybe it's just that he was cuter when he was younger.

(added later)

I was just watching 1LoT again, and I was staring at Dr Mizuno thinking that he looked REALLY familiar! And then it hit me...

It's Tada-sensei from Prodai!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He looks so much more cooler and handsome in 1LoT!!!!!!!

I started to watch 1 Litre of Tears today. I probably shouldn't as I've already started JC, but since tutorials haven't started yet (only lectures have), I have so much free time on my hands, so I decided to watch 1LoT.

Anyway, it is seriously the saddest drama I've watched. 10 seconds into the drama and I had to try really hard to keep from sobbing. Crying is inevitable!

They've acted really well in this drama, and the whole compilation is freaking good! I was crying at almost every scene. AWESOME DRAMA!!!

-_-||| I feel like I'm writing a review for the drama...

Anyway, my life in JC...PHYSICS SUCKS!!!! AND SO DOES MATHS!!! What the hell was I thinking when I chose to take those subjects?!! The lectures are always too fast, I can barely keep up and have to review the notes later to understand what's going on (but there's plenty of free time for that). Can't believe I'm saying this, but I seriously can't wait for tuition to start! I really need to at least understand something  during math and physics.

On the other hand, for Chemistry, I feel like I'm finally understanding the mole concept, it actually seems to make sense now!

Oh and lit, I think the teacher is really good at teaching us how to do unseen poems! I don't know how she compares to Mrs Low though cos she hasn't started on the texts yet, but, actually, I can't wait to start on Wuthering Heights. Reading it is itself interesting, I can't imagine how fascinating analysing it would be!